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“Untitled Other Than to Say A Sukkos Tale”
An epiphany can arise from the most unlikely of circumstances.
I had never before lived among observant Jews and, for the first time in
my life, almost all of my immediate neighbors were shomer Shabbos, an
experience that helped me to put a new face on Judaism, one which I
had never seen as a boy.
Hoping to gain their trust as both a neighbor and fellow Jew, I used
to read stories to the neighborhood children in front of my apartment
building. Imagine a garden of brightly smiling, hungrily eager children
sitting “Indian style” on the sidewalk religiously awaiting news of the
escapades of Winnee the Pooh or the fanciful prancings of Cassie and
Her Magic Flowers read to them on Shabbos afternoons and warm
summer evenings.
I initiated this modest undertaking, my own tiny gathering of story
lovers and good listeners-“Street School” as it came to be known-to
further the neighborhood’s friendly, familial nature. Emanating
primarily, I think, from the observant families onto whose path I felt
myself being drawn, they colored the neighborhood in shades of tangible
kindness and a purposeful joy of life.
The richness of Jewish life had somehow eluded me in my
childhood leaving me so unschooled that I could not even distinguish
between Shabbos and Shavuos or differentiate a siddur from a
chumash. Mind you, my youth had not been entirely barren of Jewish
experiences, such as they were. We gathered at my Aunt Iris’s house for
our one seder on the eve of Passover, knew enough to eat matzoh, read
the story of our exodus in the “Haggadah shel Maxwell House,” feasted
on the eve of Rosh Ha Shanah, broke the fast of Yom Kippur and my
my mother lit Hanukkah candles by plugging in an electric menorah.
My family did not lack the threads so much as it did the fabric of Jewish
life.
We’ve all experienced defining moments. Much like points on a map,
they serve as markers along the way, charting our progress, as we near
our destination. Although typically brief, such moments leave permanent
impressions on our memories.
When the Goldmeyers invited me to attend the bar mitzvah of their
first-born son, I felt excited but equally intimidated. The occasion would
mark my first time in an orthodox synagogue. Shabbos morning arrived.
I delighted in walking to shul like everybody else and remember distinctly
feeling as if I were part of something really important. That feeling
changed when I became lost in the seeming mayhem of orthodox shul
dynamics. Overhearing others comment that the crowd was larger than
usual due to the many guests, the shul was resultantly agog with
simcha, its atmosphere resounding with a delightful cacophony of
sounds. There was just so much to see, a treasure trove for a people
watcher like me.
Frankly, I did not have a clue what to do or what was going on. So I
took a seat in the back, opened the siddur I had found on my chair,
looked at it for an instant and realized it would do me no good (it was all
in Hebrew.) The seats on either side of me were occupied so I placed the
siddur on the floor under my chair. I think it was the gentleman to my
right who-before I even knew what he had done-reached under my chair
to retrieve the siddur. “This is yours?” he asked rhetorically, waving
it gently but a bit too closely in front of my nose.
“Well, I … uh,” I stumbled inarticulately, sensing I had done something
wrong but not quite sure what.
“This book contains God’s name. We don’t put it on the floor,”
reproaching me pleasantly but, I imagined, incredulously.
“Thank you,” I softly muttered, grateful he had been discreet enough that
nobody’s attention was diverted. It had been a slap on the wrist really,
but an important one nevertheless. I would learn the ropes eventually, I
told myself, in time.
A pattern began to emerge. Every Friday night, I heard Dr. Hirsch, my
next door neighbor who also lived on the second floor, singing the
same melodies. Unknown to me then, I much later realized he was
welcoming the Sabbath Queen with the melodiousness of his erev
Shabbos z’miros. Although not yet incandescent enough to show
me the way, I realized the poignancy of his song had sparked my barely
aglow pintele yid. At the very least, I felt justified in believing I had taken
a tiny step out from darkness.
Not too long thereafter, Dr. Hirsch knocked on my back door one
rainy Shabbos afternoon.
“Larry, you’re soaked,” I said, stating the ridiculously obvious while
puddles formed beneath his feet.
“Is Tal here? I thought she might be playing with your kids,” looking a
tiny bit concerned but well short of frantic.
“Tal? No, she’s not here. Is there a problem?”
“No, no. Boruch Ha Shem! It just occurred to me you might
have moved Street School inside, you know, given the weather,” he said,
turning aside just enough to remind me of the day’s inclemency.
“Larry, I wish I knew, but I …” sputtering my concern.
“Don’t worry. She can’t be too far,” reassuring the both of us.
‘Larry,” I probed, “Where for God’s sake is your umbrella?”
“Precisely!” he retorted, grinning broadly. “It’s Shabbos. I can’t carry.”
“Oh … yea,” sounding dumber than a rock and looking very sheepish,
I’m sure.
“Hey, we’re going to hear Rabbi Kahane speak tonight after Shabbes at
B’nai Rueven. Wanna go?” he announced invitingly.
“Sure. Sounds great!” I leapt back as if I hadn’t misspoken.
We went to hear Rabbi Kahane that night. The Hirschs made aliyah
soon thereafter, and not until many years later did I see him again at a
Jewish arts festival. I understand now that his invitation to hear Rabbi
Kahane speak was a real rachmones.
One afternoon after finishing a story, I chatted with five-year old
Sholem, Rabbi Twersky’s son:
“So, tell me, what does your father do?”
“He learns,” he returned the response as if there could be no other.
“He does what?” my curiosity piqued by the mystery of that deceptively
simple response.
“He learns,” he repeated, as matter of factly as the first time.
“Such an odd expression,” I reflected, muttering words to myself that I
kept from reaching Sholem’s ears. Never had I heard the verb “learns”
used in that fashion, but it intrigued me. Ever an avid student of
language, I entered it into my lexicon of life experiences.
“He learns”- a two-word sentence, barely existing, a subject and verb
having no stated direct object. What I didn’t know was the direct
object needn’t have been articulated. Everyone that is but me seemed to
know what it was, even five-year old Sholem. I would have loved to chat
more with him. Having so many more questions, I determined to find out
more about these Jews who “learned.” However, the constraints of my
family life prevented me from venturing out too far into those waters.
That would come in time, I reasoned to myself, but for the present, I
would have to be content with testing the temperature of the water with
my toes. As it happens, my neighbors: the Goldmeyers, the
Hirschs, the Twerskys and the Eichensteins were pretty much doing the
same thing. We were, in effect, taking the most cautious of steps in the
shallow waters of each others’ lives.
It’s an old and often frustrating truism that the tracks of progress
can be traced not so much in leaps and bounds but in the tiniest of
baby steps. The Shabbos of Chol HaMoed Succos while I sat reading on
my back porch, I happened to divert my eyes from the page momentarily
to espy Rabbi Twersky walking in the alley.
“Where is he headed? Wonder what’s up?” having never seen him before
in the alley. Something, I thought, was clearly amiss. Donning a black
kaftan and streimel, he appeared to me to be deeply troubled by the way
he was fiddling with his peyos. Inching along, his characteristic stride
replaced by a scraping shuffle, he seemed to take two steps back for
every one forward.
“He’s coming over here. He really is!” barely managing to calm myself.
Not one to engage in idle banter and certain Sholem had already brought
him up to speed on “Street School”, I watched as he entered through my
back gate. Frankly nonplussed, but eager to lend a hand, I went down to
greet him.
“Shabbat Shalom, Rabbi,” extending my hand in Shabbos courtesy,
anticipating his reciprocity.
“Good Shabbos. Mr. Busch, I have a problem,” he confided in me,
reaching out his fingers rather placidly in a manner not untypical of
many orthodox men.
“How can I help you, rabbi?” I offered enthusiastically, but unclear how I
could be of any assistance to a scion of a rabbinic dynasty!
“Some sechach has fallen from the roof of my sukkah onto the
floor, and I am forbidden to touch it on Shabbos,” he explained, tilting
his streimel back from his forehead, clearly frustrated.
“Some what?” I asked blankly.
“Sechach, an evergreen branch,” he clarified.
“Oh, no problem rabbi. I’ll pick it up,” thinking I understood his
dilemma.
“No! he exclaimed. “You are a Jew. You may not touch it either.”
“Oh wow! Okay,” I burst out. Backing off somewhat to compose
myself, I couldn’t help but feel enormously flattered he had
acknowledged my Jewish identity.
“But I do know someone who can. I’ll take care of the problem, rabbi,”
I assured him, my voice trailing off as I turned and ran up the stairs.
Pausing momentarily on the first landing, I looked back to see that his
countenance had brightened noticeably. Secure in my promise, he
turned and left for home.
Unbeknownst to him was that working in my apartment was a young
man, a non-Jew, crouched in the bathtub reglazing its surface. Feeling
somewhat foolish, but hoping to sound credible, I summoned what few
diplomatic skills I possessed and went in to talk to him.
“Uh, Tom, d’ya have a minute?” I queried, squatting down to see him eye
to eye.
“Sure. What’s up?” wiping away an errant bead of perspiration with the
back of his hand.
“Well …” scratching my head as if at a total loss of words, “you see I’ve
a neighbor with a problem and of all people you can fix it. Interested?”
“Sure, but …” he quickened to probe, but I preempted him before he
could change his mind.
“It’s this way,” feigning a reliable explanation of this Jewish conundrum
… “and the rules forbid a Jew to touch it on the Sabbath.”
“So you can’t …?” he wondered, just to be sure.
“Nope!”
“Then it’s not a problem,” he reassuringly intoned, raising my spirits
enormously. How fortunate was I to have found Tom so agreeable, but
what a ridiculous irony it was! Here I was, a secular Jew, unlearned in
Yiddishkeit and halacha, employing a gentile on the Sabbath day-an act
which itself violated Jewish law-asking him to perform a kindness, one
forbidden equally to its intended beneficiary and me.
We strode through the alley to Rabbi’s Twersky’s sukkah wherein he
eagerly awaited our arrival. Pushing aside the blue plastic entranceway, I
stepped aside inviting Tom to enter. I followed. The slightest hint of an
esrog’s scent tickled one’s nose. Gourds and dried fruit dangled
overhead. Aged portraits of rabbinic sages aside child-like depictions of
the Kotel graced the four sides of the sukkah while caricatures of the
ushpizin beckoned us to feel at home. Amidst all the festive decorations,
sat Rabbi Twersky, bent slightly forward, his fingers pouring over an
ancient Talmudic folio.
“Rabbi, this is my friend Tom.”
“Boruch Ha Shem,” he exclaimed with a broad smile, his glasses having
slipped down to the tip of his nose.
“Tom,” I said, indicating the mischievous sechach with my finger. “There it is.”
Stepping up cautiously on a folding card table chair lest it collapse, he
reached up and replaced the branch atop the latticework.
“Okay, got it,” Tom announced, a faint smile peeking through as though
this had been a welcome, albeit bizarre respite from the drudgery of
bathtub reglazing.
In one of those much-touted “Kodak moments,” I watched Tom,
trying not to teeter atop the chair, survey the curiosity of this fanciful
tabernacle. Below him two Jews, one bearded, the other not, each
dressed as differently from the other as one could possibly imagine but
ready both to catch him should his balance begin to waver. Although I
don’t know what Tom was thinking, I imagined it very unlikely he’d soon
forget the afternoon he helped me to help Sholem’s father.
And with that tiny tikkun, the world was set aright. Tom had
done a good deed, Rabbi Twersky could resume the joy of the Sabbath
and I … I had peeked into his world and it was good. I realized years later that within Rabbi
Twersky's sukkah had I found my own pri etz hadar.
From that day forward, Rabbi Twersky, when in need of a “tsenter,”
would call me to make a minyan. Though I did not know how to daven or
own a siddur and too embarrassed to tell him, I would take along
a volume of Jewish writings and, while nine davened “Ashrei,” I read
Chaim Nachman Bialik’s “The Fountain”-an incomparable poem.
The next morning, the neighborhood hastened to Hoshana Rabba,
arba minim in hand. Watching from my apartment’s front bay window, I
wondered how many more doors there would be left to open.
Alan D. Busch
5/29/07
Monday, May 28, 2007
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2 comments:
Dear Ash,
Thank you for the wonderful smile which is, I think, worth a couple of thousand words at least.
Alan
Great post, Alan! I love the way you tell your stories.
Thanks for sharing!
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